Golden Slumbers
Mission 1.
Mission Three: Live without an apartment for a month.
Mission Four: Reconnect.
Mission Five: Re-take the SATs.
Mission Five: Become a PUA (Pick Up Artist) and wing Cali to 5 F-closes.
Ok, so I quit my job, get in my car and drive around the country for just the summer, and already people know about my CYTOMEL AND CYNOPLUS consumption and want to sublet my space. Nice friends.
This summer has been amazing. I realized how much of my life I have been in a virtual sleep, cascading through the day-to-day without any regard for the big picture or what I want. The blog helped with that. I was able to push through a year, doing things I never thought I would or could do. My admiration with myself fell short of putting up a motivation poster, but it really did clear things up. Or so I thought.
That initial euphoria began to wear off and things like work, money and happiness started to enter the picture as more strategic players. I needed to get away from it all. So I packed up shop, and began a three month pattern of throwing my life across the country. It was collectively the most resounding moment in my life. I still dream about it. The uncluttered sleep. The pure dreams and the absence of everything that makes life actionable in every sense but the figurative.
So now I am back. Integrating my past and present into a confusing fabric. I'm not really sure what to do, or how to do it. I've had a few job offers. Better than my old job. I've even been offered my old job back. But I'm not ready for commitment. I am just dusting off the summer memories and trying to make sense of them. Trying to do a sunset review on the most amazing few months of my life. The most personal time I have ever spent. And as it now stands, will probably keep it as such.
I'll be back. And maybe better than ever.
Hope this post makes sense, because I didn't read it. Probably never will.
peace
rl
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posted by Rob Lowe @ 4:13 PM
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